the last time i actively journaled was wayy back in my sophomore year of high school, which was a miserable time… but we don't have to get into that LOL. so anyway, i really only wrote because i wanted to keep a record of complaints and general woes. it was intended to act as a failsafe in anticipation of future me developing any icky retrospective sentimentality, but even that did not stand the test of time (you just can't out-write nostalgia).

the entries were pretty short and very, very dramatic. and bad. lana del rey lyrics… crucifix doodles… instagram-style poetry. it put me off writing for a while because, at the time, i thought i was way too self aware to write something embarrassing. i was disturbed to find out that that was far from the truth…

but now idgaf. i had a blast writing in that awful awful journal. pandering to the irony poisoned crowd probably set me back a decade creatively, so i have a lot of catching up to do. let me get my ass up and WORK.

on another note, i'm really happy with how this page turned out visually…isn't it scenic? moody? INTROSPECTIVE, even?? i wasn't too sure what to write down for my first entry, i mostly just wanted to see the page filled out haha. for future entries, im thinking of having them linked in the sidebar to the left for easy access… not sure.

as for WHAT i'm going to write…it probably won't be anything super personal. maybe just reviews or opinion pieces or something casual. i did say i wanted to flex my writing muscles more, so i'm keeping my options open. absolutely NO poetry though. not ready to unlearn that shame <_<